10/12/2008 1816pm
This is some new thing found in my life..... wow... u see>? Marathon is the new thing!
the last time i wrote this blog is probably june... but now is december.... half year liao... so basically for the last half year, i am bored in life... but this 42km really excite me.... haha
It's after roadshow..... 4.30pm 6dec2008. I rush home.... prepare to sleep.. but i receive call from Ym...... so we went to queens town to buy NEW SHOE for marathon...... I spend $182 for that super nice and shiok ASCIS shoe.... New shoe for marathon? ??? >>>> haha commit sucide..... but if i wear my BMT shoe... then most probably i won't be about to finish it.
$182..... is so exp.... but worth it.... next time buy ascis shoe!!! for this first time marathon... i spend around....
$15 for shorts
$12 for Power Bar Gel
$182 for Shoe
$65 for registration
$???? for alot of carbo loading. haha
after that we went for dinner.... go back and take a nab...... intend to sleep straight to 2.30am then pick ym up and straight to the marathon carpark... to snatch place... haha... but i only manage to sleep from 940pm to 1045pm..... thats all.. then i watch tv till 2am then go out liao....
we trying to load carbo before sleep once sleep....... but no food available except CHEERS and 7-11.... we eat cup noodles then hurried back to car and sleep.
inside the car, ym sleeping like pig.... i can't even sleep.... 5am.... we reach the start point.... there are at least 20,000 ppl there..... so many ppl running... omg...... it's so COOL man..
the motivation was so high........ the crowd lead me through the first 21km without stopping.... only stop to squeeze out the blister's water!! NEW SHOE!!!.... but is a damn nice shoe.... i can really feel the bouncy bouncy stuffs in the shoe.. $182... worth it!. haha.... first 21km is nothing........ 2 hours 29mins on my watch...... eat 3 packet of power gel...... haha.... hourly eat once.... drink damn lot of water....
muscle aching and mental shagness come around 23km onwards....... damn it...... the freaking East Coast Park is a never ENDING shit......... around 14km..... i am already in ECP..... till 26km.... i still in EAST COAST PARK........ i hate that feeeling.... it pull me down straight...... when it U turn at 21st km........ left leg muscle... start to cramp..... i use alot of HEAT RUB from alot of "mei mei" omg.... haha then i feel the numbness... then i carry on run.... the numb+mint+heaty feeling can only last about 15minutes? then i have to walk already........
the shagness made me feel like giving up....... shit man.... still around half..... the km is getting slower and slower...... 23km.... 24km...... 25km..... 26km...... 27km...... omg... drive me fucking crazy.!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have to force myself to run............. if i walk all the way... it will nv end........ i want to end this pain asap....... how to force? i keep doing mental counting myself...... for every 15 counts of run..... i walk 15 counts..... that means...... 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 and 2,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 and 3,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 and 14,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 ....... all the way.... through this technic..... i manage to survive till the torturing 39km....... from there onwards.... i slow jog all the way till the end point........
YEAH.... damn the 5 hours 39mins and 29 sec of torture..... yeah....here come my finisher tee and medal......
i remember a indian fat auntie about age 40...... keep overtaking me...... i hate this feeling..... old woman.... old man.... young woman.... young man..... fat woman.... fat man,...... ALL OVERTAKING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Impossible....... i muz train better.... even pretty woman can do it..... i can sure do it.......
surprisingly i finish it........... after army since..... 1 & half years ago..... i nv even run anything above 10km....... i finish it... yeah... MIND OVER BODY!!!
as i said..... " with such determination, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!"
Nv do cool down at all..... forget..... first time running... noob..... now have to enjoy the painfulness...... the damn pain situation.... cannot even up and down the stairs....
*Always Waiting*
Mel Joan Vonne23 june 2008 1133
I'm very sad..... sad....
Joan had passed away on 19 June 2008....
The feeling is like i still got words to tell her.... but knowing that she can nv hear what i say anymore. That's why i am sad.... although i donno what to tell her even god give me a chance to send her a msg.
Thinking of it..... she is my senior in STA.... then slowly she became my buddy.... and we almost had dinner every night before we meet client. She's soft spoken.... i used to call her 'lin dai yu'...... she treat me very good.... there was once i hint her that her pen very nice........ she gave me 1. after getting the pen, no ink liao.... i hint her.... she passed me the ink refill. she also Bought me a guitar book on my birthday.
I received alot of things from her...........
- tons of clorets & esclipse sweets
- a very nice pen from her
- ink refill
- Guitar Book for my birthday present
- her metal ruler is always on my desk.... even she used finish still put on my desk.
- Lip Gloss (when we go japan)
- 'Air Sick' Medicine (when we go japan, she worried that i will feel unwell because i first time sit aeroplane.
- Should have alot alot alot more...... which i can't remember......
thinking back again..... i always disturb her in roadshow when i'm bored. She massage for me sometimes when i tired.
keep thinking back..... the very first few days... i keep asking her... how's life of selling insurance... what is inside her plastic bag..... our conversations....
i have know her for almost a year only. still thinking from the very first day of how i know her till 19 june 2008.... the day when i actually put a cup of coffee in front of her table and say "Joan, have your breakfast". There after...... i gave her my last respect... praying her with joss stick... thinking "Our friendship although stop here, but i hope we shall be friends again next life." Haizzz.......
sad.........
lastly...... goodbye my frenz...
*Always Waiting*
16/6/2008 0900
Sad.
ended 0902
*Always Waiting*
11/06/2008 1015
Thank u all my brothers and sister for remembering my birthday!
Thanks for all ur efforts + Gifts+ Surprises like
-organizing batam trip (Ying Ming) <--- remarkable organizing power.. keep it up.
-organizing KTV (Zheng Ming)
-asking me out for dinner (Jiahe & Yingru)
-PRATA cake (Man Chun + Ying Ming) WHICH I NV SEEN SUCH A SURPRISE BEFORE this life
-Spending the night with me on 7th june 08 and 9th june itself.... eating super sweet stuffs (girl)
-Ang Bao..... yeah (God Mum)
-Mee Suan with 2 eggs (Mum)
-Guitar Book (Joan)
Thanks -long quan for waxing my leg while i sleeping (damn pain)
-racho for tahaning me that night... keep disturbing u. ha.. not enough sleep is like that
Thanks Jane for the Super Accurate Timing to SMS me happy birthday.... damn got heart
Thanks Charmaine for Remembering the Wrong Date... haha... but got heart la.
Thanks "Shen Xian Jie Jie" for your present.
Thanks Whoever i forget to thanks..... yeah.... should type this earlier.
ended 1109
*Always Waiting*
27may2008 0129
What should i say here......... my feeling now is @^&*%^&*()(#$%^ ........ but how come? how>? one thing i learn from Gerard is "how? HOW? HOW?" haha.....
The feeling now is juz like.......
- i want to walk in "A" direction... but i am thinking of "B" direction......
- the thing is i cannot accept myself to walk in "A" direction while thinking of "B" direction
- But i cannot go for "B" direction because is an dead end.... and also..... dangerous route with obstacles which block me.
-but yet i thinking of it.
I cannot be like cmc or zm, walk in both directions and anyhow scatter their bullets. Really cannot. how? how? HOW?
- That's why i STOP WALKING and STAND in the middle of the LOST ROAD waiting for lorry to bang me hard then i can die off immediately and go to a better place and sell insurance. haha
When talk about insurance, !!!!!!! how come i knock on "PEOPLE"'s door but only DOGS and MAID entertain me.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! where are all the PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Always Waiting*
23/04/2008 2354
it's been a week ever since i am back from japan...... i still close '0' cases!!!!!!!! how to switch back to working mode.
Probably i need something to motivate me. ok.... if i hit $5k in 1 month i will buy myself a guitar! for every case i close i will pay money to go wash car instead of washing myself. Ok Set!
when talk about guitar, there are too many songs in mind i wish to play.....
- Yang Cong - yang zhong wei
- Secret - Jay Chou
- Cai Hong - Jay Chou
- Katrina - tao ze
- Xiao Tai Yang - may day
- wo bu hui chang ge - luo zhi xiang
too many... too many in mind. .... i muz master these 6 songs......
Can god please grant me some crazy guitarist with same dream and thinking in mind so that we can practices, learn and play guitar together. Only birthday Wish! only Goal in life. Make it big in music.
Superband 2 is too late...... probably..... superband 3! haha...... I wish, i wish , i wish... but no such frenz.
This is the only thing that in my mind that keep me away from focusing 100% in work!
And also, i finally found someone that can increase my heartbeat ever since poly times till now... it's been 5 years.... i've been walking, looking, searching, seeing, thinking while waiting for YR, I thought i could never find another girl in this life that can "shine" so brightly in my eye! Omg, u can't imagine how the "shine" can last overnight and affect my whole day activities! haha.... so cartoon right.... but is true.... like a sun like that... so bright. Always Smile. haha
and i'm going to die very soon... i tell u all.... Everytime i see her, my heartbeat go "bing bong bing bong bing bong." then somemore i almost everyday see her...... =P can't imagine how is it from good feeling can turn into this kind of "bing bong" feeling....... Jialat Jialat.. Jialat....
And who is she? "???? ???? ????"
ended 24/04/2008 0027
*Always Waiting*
Wong Jit Tat + Ng Aik Tat
Chua Synn Ying Our Food Ticket......
3 Bi Sheng, argh..... i bought it 380 yen...... they bought it 300yen... wasted 1 sing dollar
Mei nu........ from singapore..... not japan. haha
Toilet........ Wee Wee...... Remus->Alvin->Me->Paul17 april 2008 11.29am
Juz wake up!!!! suppose to jog at 9am...... but rain spoil (me, ym, des)'s planning!
anyway i juz come back from japan.
I can't believe that i forget my main objective for going japan..... that is to buy a keychain! a apple keychain from disney land! Play too much......... or infact not in my heart anymore.... how can i nv even think of it until last day of japan.
3rd time dreaming of someone. this has not happened to me for the past 5 years! Am i crazy? I think currrently only yingming+jane understand who i dream of. haha.....
Thanks ym for driving me back from changi airport in the middle of the night with a sudden request! 15 years buddy means 15 years buddy....... xiong di jiu shi xiong di.
yesterday should be a happy day to start work.... but i received news from army buddies..... that shaoming's mum had passed away. Out of the sudden, Very very sad feeling come out from my heart.... affected my whole day. I am easily affected by all these things..... although i only eat dumplings from her mum once before only but i truely feel sad. Haizzz.....
hope to forget about that... it's an happy day today. I muz rush for my Top FYC or Top RP cannot lose to junior..... haha
here are some pictures...... put abit nia.... so many.
ended 12.12pm
Joan always bring animal on a trip..... pig then now is dog......
Juz reach narita Airport!
Train to disneySea.......
Cai Lao Shi
Tokyo Rider........ *Always Waiting*
17 april 2008 1.17am
suppose to upload some photo from japan... but copy paste till sleep.... so tired... perhaps next time.
ended.... asap
*Always Waiting*